Sunday, January 22, 2006

The world through Saphire glasses... and I see a moose.

I'm listening to: M.I.A.: Bucky Done Gun

Last night I did my Tao-Bo video... um.. and played some DDR.

So what'd I do today? Well I had off of work so I decided to enjoy myself and got up at the bright and early hour of 11. I then ate breakfast, watched an episode of Brainiac, and talked to Fry till about 2:15.

After that Daniel and I went to the mall for a bit to pick up my new glasses. Unfortunately I didn't just walk away with them, as always I spent way too much on other things. So what was the swag you ask? Well I came away with Pokemon Sapphire, Splinter Cell for Xbox, a game stop membership, dinner, and Shutterbox #3.

I know... Will power woman!

Anyway I have nothing else to say so instead I'll take up space with a photo of me in my glasses. Hopefully you'll agree that they're sexy. ^_~

Crazy like Cruise.


Suck it off Jesus

I'm listening to: Jason Miraz- The Remedy

Setsuna12X (12:38:11 AM): your mom man
Setsuna12X (12:38:13 AM): your mom
Junglebunnymusic (12:38:13 AM): lol
Junglebunnymusic (12:38:23 AM): Well your... HAIR.
Setsuna12X (12:38:30 AM): i'm jesus
Junglebunnymusic (12:38:32 AM): Oh yes.
Junglebunnymusic (12:38:41 AM): Just let me get down on my knees for you.
Junglebunnymusic (12:38:43 AM): ^_~
Junglebunnymusic (12:38:45 AM): XD
Setsuna12X (12:38:57 AM): Well
Setsuna12X (12:39:02 AM): if you put it like that...
Setsuna12X (12:39:09 AM): xD
Junglebunnymusic (12:39:09 AM): Purrow.
Setsuna12X (12:39:21 AM): i'll be in g'ville tomorrow ~_^
Junglebunnymusic (12:39:24 AM): Oh really!?
Junglebunnymusic (12:39:30 AM): Let's go see a movie or something.
Junglebunnymusic (12:39:32 AM): I'm off.
Junglebunnymusic (12:39:32 AM): XD
Setsuna12X (12:39:35 AM): are you really going to get on your knees for me?
Junglebunnymusic (12:39:46 AM): Hum.. *ninja* maybe...
Setsuna12X (12:39:48 AM): there's your answer =)
Junglebunnymusic (12:39:49 AM): Are you paying for dinner?
Junglebunnymusic (12:39:50 AM): XD
Setsuna12X (12:39:54 AM): xD
Setsuna12X (12:40:01 AM): yah i'm not really going to be home
Setsuna12X (12:40:02 AM): :P
Junglebunnymusic (12:40:04 AM): =/
Setsuna12X (12:40:07 AM): sorry
Junglebunnymusic (12:40:08 AM): F'u,
Setsuna12X (12:40:10 AM): xD


Junglebunnymusic (12:45:41 AM): It's sad.
Junglebunnymusic (12:45:42 AM): =/
Setsuna12X (12:45:52 AM): heh
Setsuna12X (12:46:37 AM): but
Setsuna12X (12:46:40 AM): we have pron
Setsuna12X (12:46:42 AM): so we're okay
Junglebunnymusic (12:47:03 AM): Hum.. true.
Junglebunnymusic (12:47:04 AM): XD
Junglebunnymusic (12:47:09 AM): Porn makes it all better.
Setsuna12X (12:47:13 AM): it does
Setsuna12X (12:47:15 AM): well
Setsuna12X (12:47:16 AM): almost
Junglebunnymusic (12:47:17 AM): If only Osama had some...
Setsuna12X (12:47:20 AM): XD
Junglebunnymusic (12:47:37 AM): Hey he might not be so anal if he shook it out every now and again.
Setsuna12X (12:47:44 AM): lol
Setsuna12X (12:47:45 AM): XD
Setsuna12X (12:47:47 AM): maybe not
Setsuna12X (12:48:51 AM): how's fry?
Junglebunnymusic (12:48:58 AM): He's good.
Junglebunnymusic (12:48:59 AM): ^_^
Junglebunnymusic (12:49:03 AM): In BED.
Setsuna12X (12:49:04 AM): i see
Junglebunnymusic (12:49:05 AM): XD
Setsuna12X (12:49:06 AM): i bet
Junglebunnymusic (12:49:09 AM): Um.
Setsuna12X (12:49:09 AM): i wouldn't know
Setsuna12X (12:49:12 AM): cheese
Setsuna12X (12:49:13 AM):
Junglebunnymusic (12:49:14 AM): Oh don't lie to me.
Setsuna12X (12:49:17 AM): lol
Setsuna12X (12:49:19 AM): shhh
Setsuna12X (12:49:25 AM): you dont' knwo that i went to england the other day
Setsuna12X (12:49:27 AM): shhh
Junglebunnymusic (12:49:28 AM): I know you've been sneeking around on me.
Junglebunnymusic (12:49:30 AM): BUT!
Junglebunnymusic (12:49:32 AM): 0.O

Um.. yes that concludes what I did today.

Like a mongoose.


Sunday, January 08, 2006

Welcome to the New Year

I'm listening to: Simple Plan- Addicted

I'm feeling a bit displaced today. I was sitting at work this morning, trying to shove off credit card applications (Fruitless, frivoulous waste of time that corporate came up with.) when I got this weird feeling. You know how in different seasons you feel differently? How there's just a different scent in the air and how more obviously the weather changes. Well, I got the feeling of Summer, just that familiar aroma.

Must be wishful thinking. Or maybe I'm just going to crack soon and this is my mind's subtle signal to me. Either way it felt really nice for the whole ten minutes it lasted.

Lately I've been wondering about the future in a less romantic way. Usually, and in the past, I thought of the things I'd be doing later as purely fantasies. You know that cinamatic perspective as I move into a dingy little dorm room, the sunlight filtering through steady trees and into the windows as the camera pans left... Me putting down my bags. That kind of thing. Perfection. Executed exactly as I'd imagined. Of course I've never been so foolish to belive that those things would ever actually happen like that, but I've always allowed myself that luxury.

But as I've said, lately I've been thinking of things realisticly... And I wonder if I'll even halfway like what I'm doing later in the year. Or if I'll always just be dreaming about those imaginary, silver screen moments.

I want to live in the present, too often in my life I've escaped to glorified past memories or senarios that would never come to pass. The thing I've realized about those movie clips I've made in my head is this, they're fleeting. And after they're over... what happens then?

I guess I never have known what I want. But that's not unique to just one human being, I'm sure nobody really knows what's best for their happiness. What I do want now though is something real. In all aspects of my life really, I'm tired of waiting to live my life, I'm in it. I guess I'm starting to realize I'm mortal, and I don't want my last thought to be how I've wasted so many perfect days.

I guess what I mean by this is that I don't want to settel. I'm not really sure if I'm strong enough of a person to do that though. I guess I have to work on that, I'm tired of loosing my identity to people. I am who I am. If you don't like it... Well then I guess you're rejecting me. And that's too bad, cause I'm a great person to know.

I'm tried of being modest too.

I'm going to be more confident this year.